1. A state of intense happiness and self-confidence
People often say you’re a reflection of the people you surround yourself with, and it’s true. You’re bound to pick up the tiny little quirks they may have as well as all their good (and bad) habits. I know I always find myself picking up a random catchphrase just because my friends keep saying it. And I’ve always felt that who I am as a person is sprinkled with the little traits of people I’ve met and gotten to know throughout my life. From middle school to high school to college to those I’ve met elsewhere, every single person has had a part in shaping me into who I am today. Although not everyone I’ve met has been instrumental in my growth nor were they the best role models, I’m grateful they were once in my life as lessons I needed to learn. I’ve always been a firm believer of everything happens for a reason and for that, I will let the pieces fall where they may.
Lately, I’ve been in a state of euphoria. A state that feels so foreign to me, not because I was unhappy with anything in my life, but because I feel like my life has been stagnant up until recently. I often find myself losing motivation or feeling uninspired, hence, all my frequent disappearances on Instagram. But more recently so, it’s different. I feel different. I feel like a switch flipped in me, and now I’m filled with a sense of genuine happiness that just radiates. I’m feeling more inspired than ever and ready to give it my all in everything that I do. And strangely enough, a part of me thinks that these wonderful souls may have had a part in this.
About two months ago, I came across a few inspiring people who helped me film my first lookbook video (which you can watch here). Filming only took two days and the video was completed and uploaded two weeks later. I, for one, thought that would be the last of our contact, since it was business, and I never expected anything else to come from it. I didn’t expect to form such a great friendship with any of them and I don’t think they were expecting this either. Not that I didn’t want to be friends in the first place, but because we met on such weird terms.
What initially started off as a business relationship turned into friendships and bonds that I hold dearly now. I can’t imagine what my life would be like without them. In the two months I’ve gotten to know them, I’ve been introduced to many firsts: filming a lookbook video, going on photoshoots (with anything other than my iPhone), trying out micheladas, and our most recent adventure - camping.
We pulled off a spontaneous overnight trip to Joshua Tree this past weekend with (very) minimal and last minute planning and things honestly could have gone so wrong, but everything fell perfectly in place… kind of. I’ve always been in awe of desert looks and all the boho vibes that were going on every time I saw a photo at Joshua Tree. I wanted to create a look and vibe just like it too. And I did. I had my vision all planned out of what was supposed to be executed at sunset when we arrived, from the outfit to the scenery. I thought about it all, more so than about the basic necessities I needed to survive in the desert in the middle of the summer. For example, I forgot to bring a flashlight but I didn’t forget to bring my lash glue. LOL. But things clearly didn’t go accordingly (as you guys probably figured out) and I ended up taking photos in my PJ’s at sunrise instead. So, while it wasn't the vibe I was going for, it’s still a vibe.
It felt nice to disconnect from society for a little while and not having the need to check social media every so often. It was refreshing to simply take nature in and enjoy the special moments with friends for what it is. There’s nothing like running around the desert all night without the slightest worry in mind. We climbed rocks at midnight, star-gazed at 2 AM, roasted marshmallows at 3AM, played UNO at 4AM, and chased the sunrise at 5AM. But it was all totally worth the sleep deprivation all of us are currently going through right now. When I met them two months ago, I never expected this little idea would actually come to fruition. But I’m glad it did because there’s something about staring at the stars and chasing the sunrise with your friends that leaves you feeling inspired and ready to take on the world, even if it seems as if you’re just a speck in this seamlessly big world.
This unforgettable weekend had me feeling more grateful than ever for these people. I’d like to think that they’re all my guardian angels who came into my life at a time when I was really trying to figure myself out. I wasn’t looking for anyone or anything and sort of expected myself to just aimlessly wander around until a spark of inspiration hit, but that didn’t go as planned. In the midst of my soul-searching, they came in and took me under their wings and have been supporting me wholeheartedly since the day I met them. It’s rare coming across someone, yet alone a whole entire group, with whom your soul connects. Whether it’s through Instagram or through personal decisions, they’re always there every single step of the way, always encouraging me to do my best. In return, that makes me want to do my best and to give my 110% in everything that I do. And honestly, that’s the best kind of people you want to surround yourself with.
People that make you feel like you can do anything you set your mind to and/or people that will encourage and support you as if it’s the last thing they do. It’s rare coming by such genuinely good people with nothing but the best intentions in mind. Life’s too short to surround yourself with toxic people who will take every chance to hold you back or with people who will only do things for you in exchange for something else. There’s no use in keeping around people who emit negative energy, so go find yourselves the people that make you want to do better and be better. Do better and be better because you want to and not because you have to, and certainly not because someone else is making you. And don’t ever change for anyone expecting anything in return. And once you do, hold onto those people and cherish them because it’s honestly one of the best feelings.
And on one final note, it’s refreshing hanging out with other creatives because you can bounce ideas and inspiration off each other and help the other person thrive. After seeing how hard they work and how passionate they are, I feel like I’m overflowing with inspiration and motivation to be the best version of myself. I no longer want to settle for mediocrity because quality over quantity always. I stopped caring about the likes and engagement because numbers don’t define me as a person and it’s relieving posting things that make me happy. So, I guess this is it. This is the direction I want my blog to go in - I want it to be a space where I can open up and share my personal thoughts. Stepping out of my comfort zone (literally and figuratively) has never felt better.
So, if you guys are reading this, I appreciate each and every single one of you. And I will forever be grateful for everything you’ve done and for everything that’s yet to come. Let’s continue adventuring our way through life together.